I’m taking a really cool software training class this week. I’ve been wanting to learn it for a long time, and my boss finally agreed to pay for the week-long training class for a coworker and me.
I hope it doesn’t sound conceited if I say that I’m picking it up a lot more quickly than some others in the class, despite the fact that I’ve never actually used the software before. Part of it is that they’re not computer-savvy (is it offensive if I mention that they’re from an older generation?). Part is that they’ll immediately ask for help if something goes wrong, whereas if I miss a step, I’m able to navigate back and figure out what went wrong. Maybe it’s just that I tend not to blame the software or the teacher, which are both awesome.
Anyway, my only complaint about the class is that it moves a little slowly, and I’ll be several steps ahead waiting for the rest of the class to catch up. This is a very bad thing for me.
I’ve always had a problem focusing. In elementary school, I used to keep a stash of toys in my desk so that I could play during lesson. Sometimes I’d read, the book hidden in my lap where the teacher couldn’t see. Luckily, I was also a smart kid, so I still managed straight A’s.
This is a problem that has persisted. I am a doodler, a daydreamer. Sometimes I’ll be in a meeting, listening, but all of a sudden I’ll snap back to reality and realize I missed 10 minutes of conversation. This also happens in social situations. I forget names as soon as they’re spoken. I never remember to call – my older sister is the same. We’ll talk once every 3 or 4 months, but pick right back up where we left off.
Anyway, I think it’s likely that I have undiagnosed ADD.
I’ve pondered the idea before, since I really do have focus issues. To some extent, does it even matter? Obviously I’m no slouch, even with my constant state of distraction. Then I think, well, what kind of dynamo could I be if I could just focus? What kind of evil supergenius could I become if I could just stop getting distracted by shiny objects?
During one of my many “breaks” in the training, I googled ADD tests and took a couple. I sent a couple to Chad, just for fun. My scores were DOUBLE what his were. I even tried faking some test answers, pretending that no, I don’t tend to fly off the handle randomly. Still high.
I talked to my mom about it, and she said that my older sister was just diagnosed with ADD (which is funny, because we’ve talked before about our “quirks” – forgetting things immediately, losing objects that we just had 2 seconds ago, our inability to hold a conversation without spacing out). I’m not sure if she decided to go on medication or anything (since I haven’t spoken to her since my birthday almost a month ago, even though she’s supposed to be coming to visit in the next few weeks). I’m not sure if I’d take medication for it – maybe just knowing would be enough?
I might go see a doctor about it, but I probably will forget.